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To Have and To Hold

To Have and To Hold

by

Alina Comsa

My life’s a cage. I was free for however many hours I laid in my blanket on a bench in a park, even though I have no memories of that. No one remembers their first day of life.

Then… then I was rescued. Taken to a hospital. Given a name that was never mine. And the foster care swallowed me whole and spat me out eighteen years later.

I’ve broken free of that cage, because I’m scrappy like that. Went to college, married a good man. Or so I thought.

Seems, in my journey to the rest of my life, I’ve also collected an unseen, but ever-present hitchhiker. No, he doesn’t share my car for rides.

What does he do, you ask? He makes my skin prickle, my stomach fill with dread, and my heart race until I fear it will explode out of my chest.

The freedom I was so proud of is only an illusion.

That illusion shatters as soon as my brand-new husband slams divorce papers in my face and kicks me out of his house.

Alone and afraid, I’m spiralling, trapped in a new cage. This cage comes with fancy bedsheets, suffocating anxiety, and silver chains wrapped around my wrists.

How will I free myself now?

Do I even want to?

To Have and To Hold is a standalone dark romance novel, intended for readers 18+, with explicit scenes, mature language, and touching on sensitive topics

More Details

IAC Main Tropes:

Love Triangle, Human Psyche

Detailed Tropes:

Stalker, Touch Her and Die, Morally Grey, He Falls First, Psychological, He's Her Villain

Representations in This Book:

Mental Illness

Age Groups:

Adult

Spice Level:

Level 5

Available Formats:

Paperback, eBook

Content Information:

Level 4

"Stalking
Dub-Con/Non-Con
Blood play
Somnophilia
Gun play
Sexually explicit scenes
Death of a parent (mentions)
Child abandonment (mentions)
Child abuse/negligence (mentions)
Domestic Violence/Assault
Entrapment
Mental Health Issues (paranoia, depression, anxiety)
Emotional, Mental, Physical abuse
Medical Procedure - Birth Control
Torture
Emesis
Gaslighting
Suicide (mentions)
Death
Divorce
Car accident (mentions)"

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About the Author

Alina Comsa

Alina C. lives in the UK with her partner, dodging like a pro her turn to do the dishes. She dabbles in quality assurance by day, writing and reading by night, and lives with little to no sleep.  

Alina's your typical woman-in-a-book-cave-recluse. Both as a writer and as a reader. She believes books are the best medicine for the soul, and it's that belief that made her take a leap of faith and put her daydreams onto paper.  

Eternally exhausted, she believes that "life was meant for reading" and coffees. Loads, and loads of coffee.

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